I can make decisions in my dreams and have varying degrees of weariness.
Still doesn't mean I am nightmare free.
Recently I had a dream about meeting two old friends who were giving me a lift in Bath. They took me away from a house party so we could "talk", and I remember not wanting to but I was too curious to see what they would say. Their hair was shockingly much longer. Not much happened, I woke myself up because it became too uncomfortable.
Despite more aggressive and violent dreams I've known myself to have, this was probably one of the worse for a while.
So I've been travelling again recently which as usual has been a mix of exhaustion and adventure. On my travels home last Friday I received an "energy stone" and met kind (and possibly rather bored) travellers on an equally long journey as mine. I also weaved through many footballers, drunks and the usual busy Londoner through the tubes and towards the next station. I am to travel again actually - I should start packing now because I am to leave at quarter to nine and it is eight already. For some reason my heart feels light. If I were to breath in deep I feel it would lift upwards to my throat. Perhaps it's too soon to go back, or perhaps I know I'm too tired to be sane for their adventure.
I should get home about hmm, ten past two in the morning?
Recently I have interviewed a very nice man for my dissertation on religion, with other interviews booked ahead in time. Work is generally going fine, though I need to focus on my Japanese essay.
I'm thinking of a few things.
Firstly the need to become a storyteller. I have a very close brother and a cousin who is practically a sister that I see often when I am home. We were telling stories in the dark which made me realise - I didn't have any.
I used to know of a man who would be able to improvise off the bat and would probably comment on the lack of need for a 'prepared story'. I can improvise a plot, but never a story. A story needs adventure! Pace! Drama! Something I stumble on without a framework in place. So! I've decided to write some for the future. You never know when telling a good story will be handy.
My other thoughts are thinking of December. Christmas is coming soon, but I am not yet ready to acknowledge it nor dedicate any time. (Though watch out Noble House, I shall swarm it with decorations in due course!) For me, Christmas is not merely a period of "joy" but it is also the peek of frustrated, angry crowds, panic and stress. Kitchen staff get swamped by orders and work hours becoming even more demanding. I've noticed the cars in the road become more impatient too, and dare I mention the beginning of third year deadlines?
Oh boy.
I guess there's mixed feelings, but while I'm nervous about my travel home I look forward to the future.
After not posting for a while, I thought it was time to clear the dust. I have quite a few blog ideas, so I'll try and update more regularly. It's more for my benefit than anyone elses' - I doubt anyone reads this anyway. Maybe Sticky'll check it now and then.
So what have I been up to? A heck of a lot of things has happened since my last post. I lost a friend, but in return I think they'll be happier. I've been looking after my mental health as much as possible because I do not want to swing into depression again. My friends have been fantastic in supporting me and we've cooked a lot together, taking in turns so no one is burdening the other and food is more varied because of it! I've needed sometime alone and perhaps its ironic I use some of it to update this blog, but ah well, doesn't matter. I can be hypocritical if I want because I have a cold, therefore I win. - Flu logic.
In other news I've been playing a lot of Magic The Gathering and I'm hoping to quickly build a blue Merfolk deck for a Tribal game. I signed up to NaNoWriMo in a desperate bid to motivate me to start a novel I needed to write for my degree anyway. So far I have 1190 words so only 48,810 more to go! I've been back and forth with illness of both a physical and mental nature, the physical this time obscenely worse which makes me desperate to try and at least do my part in keeping both natures in check. I've been cooking a lot when I can; stirfrys, pasta bakes, cakes, cookies, panna cotta, trifle, etc. It's been good fun and I know I'm healthier for it. I've been reading only a little, but mostly titles such as 'The Last Don' by Mario Puzo and on the other side, a book on contemporary Japanese religion. On my desk is the doctrine of Tenrikyo, and an interesting book called 'Some Spirits Heal, Others Only Dance' which I'm curious about. I will probably try to make more of an effort today now the house is notably quieter. I've been drawing now and then too, but unfortunately I've lost my memory cards so I cannot share anything. It's probably been a deflater for blog posts too, as I would love to show what I've been cooking but can't. Alas! I've also been making a game in RPG Maker VX Ace, and am wanting to learn the art of Blender when I have access to a faster laptop.
I've also found it helpful to use a nifty website called Getyedone which has helped me organise things I need to and motivate me to do more - especially things I especially don't want to do. If there any D&D'ers around or rpg gamers around you'll immediately understand the website. You sign up and make a 'character sheet' which can be a multitude of races and classes, and you start as level 1. To level up you gain exp for doing tasks of your own choosing. You choose to give yourself an amount of exp according to the difficulty of the task. It's nice to be competitive with friends and try to have the highest level while also gaining points in the type of tasks you've been doing - so, as I've been trying a lot of new recipes recently, I've gained a fair amount of points in 'cookery'. You can look at other player's character sheets and check out what skills they've gained points in, etc. It's interesting. I recommend readers to give it a go, especially if they're students. (Essay motivation!)
